I must confess I am not a big fan of holidays. The cold reality hits me hard, the outdoors are full, and I feel guilty and down for not doing any “real” work. But The best gift is an extra time for reflections, and going in front of a mirror and taking a deeper look at myself.

To be honest I am surprised I have made it this far in my life. Looking back, I see how many times I have come close to full halt and somehow I have managed to make it through. I used to think I am an active participant, but more I live, more I realize I try and work hard, but I have no control over many things. I am grateful for the gift of life. I am grateful for many good people I have met along the way and they helped me out. I am grateful many not very helpful people are not in my life anymore. I am grateful for having a roof above my head, and food on my table. And I wish at least the same comfort level for all my neighbors and everyone far and beyond. Most of all I am grateful for having a sweet companion.

Winter is knocking on the door and I can’t wait for short time outside again. I feel I will need to take a deeper look at myself.

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